I loved you (poem)

I loved you whenever I saw you,
I loved you whenever I thought of you.
I loved you when you were here,
I loved you when you were away
.
I loved you with every breath,
I loved you with every heartbeat.
I loved you with my heart,
And with my brain.

I never told you how much I loved you when you were here,
And now you're nowhere near.
I loved your body whole,
I loved your soul.

You never cheated on me but still broke my heart,
and now you can't mend any part.
I have loved you since you came into my life,
I'll love you till it ends.

You make me want to live, you make me want to die,
I never knew the reason why.
I have loved you since this story began,
I'll love you till it ends.

I will never be good enough for you let's not deny,
I know you can never be mine.
Now you're with her and I've lost you,
I just wanted to be with you.

I love you and always will,
I know you don't or ever will.
I wish I could just forget,
What's the point in chasing after something you're never going to get?

Invisible Heroes

INVISIBLE HEROES

BATMAN, SUPERMAN, IRONMAN, AVENGERS!

Now these are the super heroes we have learned to admire and worship, because why not? They have saved the earth, galaxy, and maybe many other galaxies, too. They are the only hope to save the humanity!

Now, now! if you’re thinking that this article is about these heroes, and all those superheroes who can’t be seen, then you are going to be very disappointed. And no, we are not talking about God, either. No doubt we all love our heroes, be it super or, well, others. Well, that’s not it. They’re not the real heroes, and they are certainly not helping the society in any way whatsoever.

Although there are no super heroes like them, doesn’t really mean that our world is devoid of heroes. No one can survive on his/her own. There are heroes helping us every day throughout our entire lives, and still go unnoticed.

There shall still be faith in humanity!

These are the heroes who are the most important. We shall call them the Decimal Heroes. What is a decimal? Just a simple dot we put in between the numbers, right? It probably can’t be seen most of the time, but the mathematicians know the importance of that miniscule decimal point. The decimal point, if moved, can change the whole importance of a number and prove a huge equation wrong.

Similarly, our decimal heroes go unnoticed by everyone, but hold an abundant amount of importance in our lives. Now you might be wondering, “who are these heroes?”

Here’s a list:

(1)    Mother:

 

The most important person in the life of every single being. Now given the fact that she gives us birth to us, that makes her the most significant and vital person in our life. Besides that, all of the sacrifices she makes for us are overlooked by the mostly everyone.

She feeds every child of hers before she herself eats. When the baby starts crying in the middle of the night, it’s the mother who wakes up and comforts the baby and makes sure he’s peaceful before she goes back to sleep. Sleep, people! She can do anything to educate her children even if it costs her a fortune.

Now that, my friend, is what I call a true hero!

(2)    Siblings:

Now sometimes, your parents don’t understand you completely. The sole reason to that is ‘generation gap’. Here, our next sibling comes to your rescue. Your sibling!

Your brothers and sisters are someone who will love you no matter what. Who protects you when you’re getting bullied in the school? Who tells you quietly that your fly is open so that you don’t get embarrassed in public? Who tells you what to wear on your first date? Who gives you an amazing boost when you’re down? That’s right! Your siblings.

(3)    The Person Who Just Helped A Blind Man Cross The Road:

Now, your family is primary, and your friends are secondary. Their efforts are still noticed sometimes, but we’re talking about society here.

The person who just helped a blind man cross the road did something really great, and for him/her it might not have mattered much. But come on! The blind person was practically helpless and could’ve gotten seriously injured, or even died if that person didn’t help him. Can we just consider that for a moment? Someone just got saved!

(4)    The Person Who Just Showed You The Way:

Now you can imagine getting lost in the middle of nowhere, right? Scratch that, even getting lost in a crowded place is pretty freaky. But fear not, for our next hero is here to help you!

A random rickshaw driver who just described you the address to your destination doesn’t quite get much credit, right? A person who just showed you your destination so that you don’t get late for your interview doesn’t get the ‘ Thank you’ he/she deserves.

(5)    The Loyal Shopkeeper:

Sometimes when you’re in hurry, you forget to get the change back. That may be a loss for you, but a profit for the shopkeeper. Now when he comes back after you just to give you your change back, isn’t he a hero, too?

There are many people like these who help us every day, but we are too busy to notice. We are always looking for the epic acts like, jumping in the water to save a drowning person, jumping in the fire to save a kid, etc. Now I’m not saying that acts like this are not important. No one’s denying that. But these little acts make a lot of difference, too.

So, let’s take some time from our busy lives to appreciate these Decimal Heroes, and to even become one, too. That’s the only way to pay the heroes back!

Adios!

  

A Healthy Crush

CRUSH

We all have several truths in life. Some turn into facts and some remain our point-of-views. The facts are usually relevant to every other person of the same age group, gender, or sexuality. Something common that we share with strangers. Isn't it weird and amusing at the same time?

In those facts, there is one fact. We all have had a crush in our lives. No matter who we are. No matter how old we are. No matter how rich or poor we are. No matter what gender we belong to. Nothing matters. It is a universal fact, that every human being has had a crush in their lives, even if it’s just once.

If you go telling me that you haven’t had a crush on another human being even once in your life, do you know what I’ll say? I’ll just laugh. I will laugh so loudly on your face that even France will hear me.

 I exaggerate sometimes. You’ll have to deal with it.

So anyway, having a crush is not worth being ashamed. It just means that you are sane and there still is some hope for humanity. Having a crush is beautiful in its own way. Hey, I’m not saying that it’s not painful at all. But don’t you just (sometimes) love the feeling of warmth in your heart? Don’t you just that you’re able to love?

There are many types of crushes. Some turn into serious ones while some are just for fun. No matter how much the density of a crush is, you’ll behave the same for that person at least for some amount of time. After that it depends on how much you are into them.

1.    You will stalk them on Facebook (or other social media):

It always starts with Facebook, doesn't it? So, there’s a person you like. Sometimes it just starts with how pretty or handsome they look. You naturally want to know more about them other than their good looks. You want to know what they like, how humorous they are, what do they like to eat, what their hobbies are, etc. How will you get to know? Talking to them? Pfft! Yeah, right!

You will never have the balls to ask them personal questions unless you’re really confident. What do you do? You stalk them on Facebook and find out what they’re like through their status, pictures, posts, yada, yada.

Or, if you want to talk to them and your tongue sticks to the roof automatically when you try to start a conversation, you try to talk though your fingers. You text them on Facebook. You can lie to him/her about yourself, you can laugh in front of him/her even if he/she isn’t funny, and whatnot. Honestly, you talk better through your fingers than your mouth.

2.    You will listen carefully to whatever nonsense they’re talking about:

You want to look good before your special one, right? You will always listen to them carefully even if you don’t agree with them. You will nod your head time to time even if you’ve zoned out and are thinking about your future kids. You’ll just say yes to whatever they have to say. I am not saying that it’s right. It’s not.

Although, it’s not totally your fault. Your brain is trained for survival instincts. It will send the messages it feels fit according to the situation. At that time, you want that person in your life more than food. You will automatically do what feels fit for getting that person. You forget about yourself. You forget that it’s not what you really want.

3.    You will always try to be around him:

You want a chance with that guy. What do you do? Try to catch his attention. If you succeed, then you try to always be around him. You don’t like not being with him. You always invite him to parties, movies, family gatherings, funerals. You never leave a chance of being alone with him.

I remember trying to go on alone walks and other places with my crush. We used to be together so much that people used to mistake us as a couple. I sometimes wish it were true.

4.    It will be a big deal when he appreciates you:

Do you remember those shriek moments when your crush says that the dress looks good on you? “Hey, you look stunning today!” or just the expression when he checks you out? You say that it’s not a big deal, you already know that you’re stunning. But your heart beats like a maniac when you experience that.

You will wear more of that outfit because you know that he likes it on you. I still remember that one time my crush checked me out. Like, actually checked me out. It will create a new hope in you. That feeling is amazing!

5.    You will smile much more:

Don’t you love that feeling when you remember something he said earlier which really made you laugh or smile? No matter where you are, a bus, a party, a funeral, you will smile broadly at that thought. Your heart does a weird dance and that makes you smile instantly. It’s like, you go in a flashback and never want to come back.

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I remember that time when that used to happen to me. Okay, I am going to quit lying. I still have that feeling. Many of the times I got glares and confused looks by people around me. “Are you okay?” they’d ask me. I’d tell them what I just remembered. They’d just shake their heads. After a while, they got used to it.

There are many types of crush. Fictional, infatuation, best friend crush, and whatnot. Even I had crush on many people. Some of them were friends, some fictional, some movie stars, but for some time I used to think that we really connected, and I thought it may turn into love. Stupid, right? Having a crush on someone is painful and I know that. But it’s an inevitable part of your life.

You can’t deny it. You can’t stop it. You shouldn't regret having a crush on someone. In the future, you will think of that person and laugh at your choice. It’s natural. It actually shows that your mind, body, and heart are still functioning.

There is a fine line between having a crush and obsession. Having a crush is totally healthy. On the other hand, being obsessed with someone can turn out to be dangerous at some point of time. When you have a crush on someone, the most you can do is stalk them on Facebook. Stalking them personally? Well that’s obsession.

Well, let’s state the obvious, shall we? This won’t make them fall in love with you. Instead, it will push them away from you. This obsession can be really harmful. People even end up killing others for that. If you want an example; watch the Hindi movie starring Shah Rukh Khan, Dar, or an English movie, Crush.

Fact: obsession takes place when a person can’t get the other. They end up hurting their ego and hurting many people in the way.

My advice: Have a crush. Fall in love. “Aww” and “Oooh” at their pictures. No problem in that, but you must know when to stop. Now, you may ask, ‘How do we know when to stop?’

The answer is really simple: Whenever you start crying for them. Just stop right there, because shit just got real. Try to move on after that. How to move on? Keep asking/reminding yourself if it will be as good in practical as it sounds in theory. Maybe it’s just the idea of being together attracts you. Maybe when you do get together, you won’t like them.  What if you end up hating them? You won’t like that!

Start with just deciding that you have to get over that person.

After that, repeat this mantra: It’s just the theory I like, and not the practical.

Start focusing on important things. Do you want your entire life to rotate around just one person? There are things more important than love. Like, chocolate, or food! Just kidding. There are other things, too. Your career, passion, dreams. You want to focus on that now.

Love is a part of your life, not life itself.

If you still can’t move on, you’re screwed!

A crush on a best friend is the most painful one!

My Sister

I have many friends. I know that it’s very hard to believe, but I do. Those friends have younger sisters. I have to listen them whine about their little siblings all day long. Okay, that was exaggeration, but they do whine….sometimes. I mean, I know that they loooove their siblings. Obviously.

Anyway, the things they tell me about their sisters or brothers make me want to give them a big bear hug. Then, I think of my sister. She’s a year younger than me. The other siblings blackmail my friends about telling their secrets to their parents, and some even do. But my sister? She’s probably fat because of keeping my secrets in her tummy.

I mean, obviously we fight a lot like any other pair of siblings. She’s a pain in the arse sometimes. She just has a way of making everyone do whatever she wants. There’s a definite pattern.

She asks you to do it.

You say no.

She says ‘please’ several times.

You hold your ground because you are either lazy or you’re just tired of doing things for her. (Just ugggh!)

She doesn’t give up. Then comes the water works.

You hate it. You can’t face it, but you try to ignore it. But water works? Seriously? Who can ignore them, seriously?

You give up and surrender.

She goes ‘muahaha’!

That bitch just gets under my skin sometimes. What else do I hate about her? She keeps nagging me to do what’s right. I hate that. Worse, I hate to admit, but she’s right most of the time. (‘All the time’ would be more correct, but I don’t want to hurt my ego.)  I practically hate her being right all the time. Like, stop being right!!!!!

But other than that, I hate nothing about her. I mean, what’s there to hate? She’s my soul sister, or soul-mate-sister as she would put it. She keeps all of my secrets hidden. All of them! She hears everything I say, and doesn’t ever interrupt. I mean, how does she do it?

She has these theories she makes up by herself (I guess). Those theories have always helped me when need be. She’s so smart, and she has all those talents I will never have in my entire life.  She can convince my parents to do stuff, which I can never do. I always end up fighting with them.

We have some quality-sister-times in which we talk. Really talk. Listen to each other and talk about each other’s problems.  Though we can’t have that everyday obviously, I look forward to those quality times. She can always motivate or demotivate me. She has my kryptonite, which I don’t even know what is. Her opinions matter. I can never take a step before asking her. Be it shopping, be it life decisions.

So yeah, I basically depend on her. She has access to my entire personal life. She knows everything about me. Whenever anything special happens, I NEED to tell her that instant. She makes me feel better about myself in just a matter of sentences. I always want to read what I wrote to her as soon as I write it. As I said earlier, her opinion matters!

I don’t know if anyone has a sister like I do. She’s a weird combination of different qualities. She can move mountains for me, but she can’t bring a glass of water for me. And in my own weird way, I love her. I love her to the core, and I will never stop loving her.

I just hope she doesn’t read all of this, but if you are, you bitch! Just know that I love you even if I don’t show it sometimes. When I’m busy ignoring the world and you think that you don’t matter to me, just know that you matter to me even more than mummy and papa. Just know this in your heart and mind, because I am never going to say this to you.

Love you, bitch!

A Teen's Guide To Parents

You must be thinking that I am just a random teenage girl. What the hell do I know about parenting, right? Well, you are right. I don't have any kids, so I don't know how to raise kids. At all. But I am a teenager. Hence, I know how our mind works. (Well, at least a girl's mind. I have no idea how a guy's mind works) I know how we work. So, I am going to let you know a little secret to earning your daughter's respect, love, and compliance. All you need to do is just one thing.

TRUST! Earn their trust. Now, you must be thinking, "What the hell? Our kids already trust us! We provide them with everything they need, don't we?" Yes. Yes, you do provide us with everything we need and we love you for that. Really, we do. We just do not show it because you do not show us your love. I mean, I know that your affection is hidden in your actions, but we aren't psychics, are we? We won't know until and unless you show it, and when you show it, we will take a step, too.

Now, back to the topic. We trust you, alright. We trust enough to let you know somethings. But, there are somethings we are not very sure about. There are some secrets we can not tell you in a million years! You know when there are somethings we kids say that hurt you so much? Well, sometimes you say some stuff that either hurts us so much that we can't express our feelings, or threaten us so much that we can't say anything to you.

Take my parents for example. I love them. They are my life. God bless them. But sometimes they just hurt me so much that I decide to never tell them anything. Today, I  was telling my mother about how a friend of mine was on a house arrest because her father discovered that she had a boyfriend. Now, my mother instead of showing some affection towards the girl, she threatened me! She said that if she came to know about my boyfriend, she will do worse to me. Now, do you really think I will tell her about my boyfriend? I would rather die! On the other side, my father. He once said that if I was caught with my boyfriend, he will leave the family and go away somewhere. I mean, I was so threatened at that time! Now, you don't want to do that if you want to know more about your daughter by her.

I mean, this is the age for relationships and breakups! There is nothing wrong in getting into a romantic relationship with a guy! I don't know why you parents don't understand that. I know, you will say that you are worried about you little baby girl. It's cute to be worried about your children. You probably think that the guy she is dating is a wrong guy. You are being protective an there is nothing wrong with that. The only thing wrong is that you are being over protective. Your way of protecting your child is very wrong.

Now think of it this way. The guy is wrong. He is a bad guy and everything else. How will you even know what kind of guy he is unless and until you've met him? How will you know he's bad unless and until you know that he is your girl's boyfriend? And how will you know until she tells you that he is her boyfriend, right? What if she gets into trouble? (Gasp!) What if that guy threatens to spill the beans in front of you? She will commit suicide rather than letting you know about it. You know why? Because she doesn't trust you enough to tell you that she is in trouble. She will try to handle it on her own, but for how long? Unless you know, that burden won't lift off and she will never be happy. The guy will keep blackmailing her and will make her do everything he wants her to do. EVERYTHING!

Now, you know the problem, I guess. Now let's focus on the solution, shall we? You want your daughter to speak her heart to you. If you want that, then it's high time you become a little broadminded. Just let your child know that it's okay to tell you. You won't hurt her. Tell her what's right and what's wrong. Tell her that 16 and dating is okay, but 16 and pregnant is not. She is your daughter, she will take care. She knows what her boundaries are. Tell her that if anything does go wrong, you've got her back. Make her trust you. She will love, respect, and comply to you even more.

When she comes back from her date, don't throw her any glares. Instead, ask her how her date went. Don't instruct her not to kiss (because that's inevitable in a relationship). Just ask her about her first kiss. Ask her about her guy. Meet her guy. See how he is. Maybe, he is a good guy and is improving your daughter.

Secondly, imagine you've just came home tired and your kid starts attacking you with orders/requests to cook for them, or do something for them. You will feel like slapping her/him, won't you? Similarly, when your kid comes home from school or college, instead of asking them to do work, let them cool down. You want your work to be done? Have patience. Ask them politely. No matter how wild we kids are, we have feelings. We also need affection. We too need someone to give us water when we come home tired like we give you water when you come home tired.

Thirdly, don't keep criticizing your child. Don't ever compare us with other kids. How will you feel when we compare you with other parents? Bad, right? We feel bad, too. In fact, we do compare you to others' parents. How cool they are to let their kids have a night out. How nice they are to let their kids wear whatever they want. These are our thoughts.

Last, but not the least. It's for the parents of a girl. Now, I know you want your daughter to be safe. But, LET THEM WEAR WHAT THEY WANT TO! We girls do not dress up to impress boys! Okay, sometimes we do. But not everyone and not always. We wear those clothes because we feel confident when we wear those clothes. We feel like for once, we look beautiful. But then, you people break our dreams just like that! You don't let us wear one piece, or shorts, or crop tops. Those clothes are in fashion. We like to follow the trend. There is nothing wrong about that. So what our bra shows? It's not inappropriate! We girls fight for feminism and against the chauvinists. Do you realize how we feel when our parents are chauvinists themselves?

This was my advice on how to handle teenagers. Trust me, you'll need it. Know in your heart that we love you. Somethings are just essential for you to know. Which I told you just now. Thank you. Love you, parents!

LATER!